Tuesday, April 25, 2023

Do Better.

 

Do better. 

 

This is something I posted on Facebook recently and I think it needs to be a blog.

 

The Christian community needs to do better in this area of thought.  I work nights and on Saturday and Sunday it’s two 7pm-7am shifts.  The nights before and after are 11pm-7am.  It’s not that I don’t want to attend church, but this is my work schedule that barely pays the bills.  I’m trying to provide for me and my dog and this is what my job set up.  I’ve had friends even tell me to take days off to be around them.  Ok but are you going to pay my bills.  I still watch First Baptist Church, Corpus Christi, and Real Life online.  There are people who start listing all their service times trying to think I’m out in the daytime.  I sleep during the day because I work nights.  I even get looks of disdain for saying I watch services online.  Seriously as a Bible study blog writer I find it sad that we aren’t encouraging people to watch services online when they can’t be there in person.  My blog in times past was used by people who were Sick and couldn’t get to church.  There is a reason for doing services online even after the Covid crap.  How are we to spread God’s word to the uttermost part of the earth when church members seem afraid of using technology?  We are commanded by Christ Jesus himself to share his word.  

 

Matthew 28:19-20

 

“Therefore, go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you.  And surely, I am with you always to the very end of the age.”

 

 

 

Friday night of this past week I was watching Real Life’s online service before work and Pastor Micah was talking about how God created us to do certain things and how in the past he wanted to quit.  I’ve been there so often with this blog thing.  Never more so have I wanted to quit since everything that happened with my marriage. I keep asking how I can go on sharing God’s Word and trying to give others hope when I’ve lost my hope and direction in life.  I’ve mentioned I keep praying for a sense of direction.  Lately I’ve seen medical things about myself that aren’t good, and I’m trying to eat and live better.  This may be the direction I’ve been praying for.  Just a small step.  But God keeps sending people who have mentioned how much they have appreciated my blog.  Like I’ve told my friend David many times.  It’s not my blog it belongs to God.  I show up and share what He lays on my heart and I’m the feeble human in the equation.  Never in my life have I doubted what I’m supposed to be doing as I have since being divorced.  I don’t know where to go or what to do from here.  But Micah’s own story about wanting to quit hit me in a way that has had me thinking.  Sharing God’s Word through online technology is something that needs to take place.  Just like I need online services well someone else needs the blog.  God made a promise about his Word being shared that I still cling to.  

 

Isaiah 55:8-11

 

“‘For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, ‘declares the Lord.  ‘as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.  As the rain and the snow come down from heaven, and do not return to it without watering the earth and making it bud and flourish, so that it yields seed for the Sower and bread for the eater, so is my word that goes forth from my mouth: it will not return to me empty, but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.’”

 

What most of you don’t know is before I hit go live when I do this blog as a video is I pray, and I ask God to use the things shared in it to draw people closer to himself and give them hope.  You get the things God shows me and I share it with you because God wants me to encourage people.  I use technology to do so.  This is another reason why the church should encourage online things because they don’t know who they’re reaching or when.  I desire one day for another person to carry on this online Bible study blog thing I’ve been doing.  

I have always tried to keep this blog as simple as can be because you can either read it or watch it as a video.  I even provide links to the music that goes with it.  My goal is simple.  If one person draws closer to God, then I have accomplished what I set out to do.  It’s not rocket science, it really isn’t.  I’m not trying to be famous or do something crazy I’m just trying to share God’s Word with someone else in the hope that it changes them.  If you ever come to this blog to see Zac, then I failed because I’m just trying to point people back to the cross of Christ because if I point you anywhere else I have failed.  I try to do what my dad’s mentor taught him.  “Keep the cookies on the bottom shelf.”  Keep things simple to where any one can understand.  Maybe one day God will call you to blog and encourage others.  If you have a phone and a tripod and most importantly a Bible, it can be done.  

 

 

 

 

If you want me to by Ginny Owens

Face the nation by 4 Him 

God so loved by Jaci Velasquez 

Tuesday, April 18, 2023

Let my cry

 

Let my cry 

 

Some days we need to remember to pour out our hearts to God.  On Tuesday Nights I have a tendency to spill my soup from Taco Palenque when I try to pour it into a bigger bowl.  When we pour out the mess of our hearts and lives to God it doesn’t spill or make a mess because He can handle the messes we can’t.  We forget that too easily and try to deal with it on our own.  

 

 

Psalm 102:1-2

 

“Hear my prayer, O Lord; let my cry for help come to you.  

Do not hide your face from me

When I am in distress.

Turn your ear to me;

When I call, answer me quickly.”

 

 

At the beginning of this Psalm in my Bible it says “A prayer of an afflicted man.  When he is faint and pours out his lament before the Lord.”  

 

It’s a short blog but again there’s no guide for doing an online Bible study blog.  Maybe like me though you need a reminder to pour out your heart to God. 

 

Lord I’m ready now by Plumb

 

God Help me by Plumb

Tuesday, April 4, 2023

What does that look like for you and me right now?

 

What does that look like for you and me right now?

 

Months before my marriage ended, I bought a book by Sheila Walsh called It’s okay not to be okay: moving forward one day at a time.  Yes, that is the exact title.  Some of you have noticed I don’t blog as much and with all I’ve been through I don’t have a lot to say.  This is something most people I talk to who follow God don’t quite understand, you can listen to sermons and Christian music and read your Bible but I still haven’t found the exact message that talks about what to do when your wife leaves you and divorces you but I found part of it in Sheila’s book.  I meet with these guys on Tuesday night and no offense to any of them but just pointing people to the Bible without a specific place makes it a little more difficult to find the answers you need at the time.  I also understand it is hard to point someone to the right place when they may not understand or perceive all the emotional damage the person, they are trying to help might have been through.  I can tell you for me it was a lot.  I didn’t always get it right as a husband but each day I tried to win the husband of the year award.  I don’t try to say bad things about my ex-wife because we both had our flaws.  She made her choices I was no longer one of them.  We hurt each other emotionally, not on purpose and I’m trying to heal, and the answers aren’t always simple.  In fact, they are never simple.  I have good and bad days like anyone will.

 

My friend Aaron told me I needed to be around people and it’s true.  Because friends and family help.  Sometimes me being around people is just Zac going to a restaurant and talking to the wait staff and observing them.  I’m at a point where I must rediscover who I am by myself. There are days that are much harder than others.  I talk a lot to my dog Arisia.  I rescued her from the Humane Society, and she is rescuing me each day.  I met with my friend John a few weeks ago and he humbled me by telling me how God had used me sharing my blog to help him and his wife.  Sometimes I need the right book to read and that’s why I needed to get back to this Shelia Walsh’s book.  I have a friend Carlos who told me that the sense of direction I keep praying for is to simply trust God.  That’s hard because a lot of days I feel numb.  I just exist.  I try to find some connection to anything happening in my life.  On the nights I work I have purpose in the things I do. My nights off though I really don’t.  I’m still up most of the night.  I play video games, watch whatever, eat, sleep, and play with my dog.  I take care of things that need to be done.  It took a lot for me to figure out how to do the most mundane stuff again knowing I was alone.  But even months later I’m still at a loss for what I’m supposed to do on my nights off.  I go to Most Wanted Comics and talk to Bethany and Stephen, they know me and make me laugh and smile.  I miss blogging and I don’t know what to even say to help me or someone else.  Right now, my life is a mess.  I’ve got one working hearing aid I don’t have a solution for that yet.  My marriage is gone, shattered, exploded, whatever but I still have a job, my house, and family and friends praying for me.  I’m learning to be more grateful.  I have a dog that loves me.  I’m breathing so God must not be done with me.  If God can hold the world together, destroy the walls of Jericho, raise Jesus from the dead, well then at some point he can heal the mess that is Zac.  Some days the hardest thing to do is to pray, read my Bible, listen to Christian music because the devil is not going to make it easy on me.  Depression will hit you when you least expect it.  

 

But I read this passage in this book and I can’t keep it to myself. I have to share it with someone else because maybe you have struggles like I do.  

 

This is what Sheila Walsh said in her book and it’s so powerful.

 

“Think about it this way: I’m not living by faith if I have an answer to everything.  If I understand everything God does or doesn’t do, then all I need to do is love him with my mind.  We are called to love him with more.  When an expert in religious law asked Christ what he had to do to inherit eternal life.  Christ asked him what his understanding was from the laws given to Moses.  His response was, 

 

‘You must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, all your strength and all your mind and Love your neighbor as yourself’ Luke 10:27

 

Christ told him he’d answered correctly.  Heart, soul, strength, and mind.  What does that look like for you and me right now?  We love with our heart, even when it’s broken.  We love with our soul, even when our humanity wrestles against our situation.  We love with our mind, even when we don’t understand.”  

 

That was in her book.  It floored me when I read it.  Why? Because I’ve been broken, I currently don’t understand and every day I pray for direction, hope and purpose and my humanity is wrestling with all of that.  So, the question returns and in pro wrestling terminology this would be your go home line of the promo or the concept that leaves you asking the same stuff I have been.  “What does that look like for you and me right now?”  I have to love God and trust Him even on the hardest or best days.  

 

Like Martina McBride sang

 

“God is great. 

But sometimes life ain’t good

When I pray 

it doesn’t always turn out like I think it should.

But I do it anyway 

I do it anyway.”

 

 

Anyway by Martina McBride 

When life gets broken by Sandi Patty and Heather Payne

Hurt and the Healer by Mercy Me

Acoustic Medley by Point of Grace