Seek
We’re all seeking something. Purpose I’m looking for some purpose. I used to be married and my days had meaning when taking care of my wife. Now I simply have a dog. I’m trying to be the best dog dad I can be. I’m seeking to be the best me I can be. Something in my life has to matter. I had a tooth extraction this past Tuesday and I have been praying so much asking for the pain in my mouth to end. Since my divorce I pray often for God to heal my heart. I had a moment a few nights ago where the devil put a thought in my head that was so blatantly a lie I saw through it and it made me righteously angry. It was a thought of “why are your bothering to seek God when he didn’t keep your marriage together?” The thought was so wrong I knew nothing about it was right. God is the only place I have left to turn because my world and mind and heart is such an absolute mess. When your spouse leaves you and has talked about doing so for years there’s not a lot you can do. In the book of Matthew, Jesus tells us to Ask, Seek and Knock.
Matthew 6:33-34
“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.”
So I continue seeking and asking and knocking looking for the day when God shows me a clearer path. Until then I keep trying to live day by day and moment by moment. I go to work. I do my best because it’s all I can do.
