What do you want
A not so small blog that I’ve been thinking about. I have a
friend who wants to be famous and make money. I want to glorify God with
my life and feel like I fail miserably. The thing I want most in life I
have no way to make happen. I pray and pray for a purpose because I don’t
feel I even have one. For those who don’t understand this, in a lot of
ways I was my ex-wife’s medical caregiver along with being her spouse and to
not have someone that you take care of makes you feel like you have no purpose.
I matter to my family, and I try to matter to my friends. What I
want most is to be loved by a woman and love her in return, but I can’t find
her. Recently I made a friend smile and that whole day I was happy that
in some small way I could make her happy. I have another friend who sends
me messages that she misses me, so I go visit her at work and it makes us both
smile. I feel like I work to the best of my ability get paid and come
home. I try to be the best dog dad I can be. A lot of times I feel
like I drift through life aimlessly. I seek after God and I long to do
what’s right. As a writer I don’t have a lot to say. I let myself
enjoy reading. I don’t always have the chance to.
Psalm 37:4 says this “Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give
you the desires of your heart.”
Recently I read a Spider Woman graphic novel and Jessica Drew for a
short time quit the Avengers and all she wanted to do was “help people.”
I get that. I understand it. If Def Leppard asked me with
their song Rock of Ages, “What do ya want, what do you want?” Well their
response is wanting to rock and roll but like Jessica Drew aka Spider Woman I
simply want to help people. If I can make someone smile throughout the
course of their day that’s fine with me. If it’s simply giving a friend a
Supergirl Funko pop while they’re working or showing up and visiting with another
friend who’s working or simply showing kindness to others, I’m fine with that.
I recently posted something on Facebook to try and help people see
something from another perspective. I wasn’t trying to get a lot of
attention or anything like that but to help people who know someone who has
been divorced, had a spouse leave or lost a loved one, know how to interact
with their friends who have been through this. It takes showing kindness
and treating that person like they matter and making them feel wanted. We
go through so much in life and sometimes the person next to us is one step away
from falling apart. I’ve been there. See I asked at the beginning
of this “what do you want?” I recently watched a video of WWE general
manager Adam Pearce and he was being interviewed and he mentioned how his wife
watched him get so frustrated by things said on social media that were negative
and he sat and thought about it and started ending his videos with one phrase.
“Love somebody today.” It’s really that simple people! Make
it be that when you interact with others, they walk away better than how you
found them. Hug someone. Tell them they matter. I have a
“hero’s compulsion.” I want to help people.
I had a teacher in college, and I’ve shared this before that I knew
she was a Christian and I asked her to sign my Bible and she did and referenced
these verses and I had to look them up.
Galatians 6:9-10
“Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we
will reap a harvest if we do not give up. Therefore, as we have
opportunity, let us do good to all people, especially to those who belong to
the family of believers.”
Your life is connecting to people and the most helpful thing you can
do is be kind.
Meant to be by Steven Curtis Chapman
Love one another by Michael W Smith
